Monday, 30 May 2011

First day of Year 2 Sem 1

                Today is first day of Year 2 Sem 1. My 1st class of this sem is in this morning 8 o’clock with the subject Measurement of Civil and Infrastructure Works. Yea, 8am class, there 8am class 3 days per week this sem and one day finish class at 6 o’clock in the evening. Seriously, I don’t like this sem timetable very much and I was thinking that ‘Cham, I need to wake up early in the morning. Can I do this until the end of the sem?’ Beginning of Year 2 but I seem like not too happy even I can meet with my cutie course mate and lovely friend cz the holiday is too short and I still haven fully enjoy my relax life as last sem is truly a hard sem for me to pass through. I go to uni with tired body, sleepy mood and empty tummy this morning because I didn’t sleep whole night. Maybe a nap from 5pm++ until 7pm++ makes me against insomnia whole night.
                Lecturer of Measurement is Malay and she wants us to have Civil Engineering Standard Method of Measurement (CESMM) by this Wednesday. None of our course mate is successes sought for the book. Have she ever think that this book is hard to find? My friend search for internet, we ask the book seller in our uni and seek for the book in book store but we can’t even find one. The other class that we need to attend today is Economics of Construction Industry, which is taught by Malay too.
                After the class finish, I invite some of my friend to watch a movie. This is because I have a free movie ticket from TGV cinema and it only valid until tomorrow. 8 of us are decided to watch movie in KLCC with the other purpose to find the CESMM in Kinokuniya. But unfortunately, Kinokuniya only have CESMM in UK standard and we need it in Malaysia standard.
After that, we were having our lunch at Sushi King and afterward we have a walk while waiting for the movie in 4.45pm. The movie chosen is Insidious, a thriller/horror movie as some of us had already watch Pirates of Caribbean and Kung Fu Panda. This is first time I watch thriller movie in cinema. Well, I don’t think the story line is interesting, but it does still can attract our attention because it is scary enough (for us). My friend and I close our eyes when we expect the ghost will pop out in the screen. Even thought we close our eyes, we still scared by the sound (don’t have another pair of hand to close our ears). What I feel funny is when I too scary and clenched my own hands and put my both hand in my chest so that I have 安全感------------I scare other people will feel pain if I clench their hand, my friend saw it and ask “what are you holding?”  I was laughed by my friends after that. The worst thing is, when I was scared by the ghost, my friend flutter and suddenly clench my arm. What do u feel when u are scared and suddenly a long thin cold finger firm grip your arm? Hahahahaha.. but feel funny when think back the scene. After the movie, we went back home at 7pm++.
Now I really tired and sleepy because din sleep since last night, but I still wish to complete this post in my blog because this is a day which I feel quite relax and happy in this few day.

Friday, 27 May 2011

伤心。绝望

人生中,发生些不如意的事情是难免的。但对我来说,不如意的事情却不是偶尔发生的,而是一而再,再而三地在我的生活里环绕着我、阻碍我,无论做什么总是不能顺利完成。不想要发生的事总是发生在我身上。希望的事、许下的愿,却从都没实现。往往发生的事情总是带给我很大的影响以及打击,我没办法乐观的去面对也不知道如何去面对!为什么付出的努力,付出的代价不能得到相当的回报?无论是对人或对事都让我感到很疲惫,不想去面对但又不希望“失败”这两个字永远烙印在我的生活里,所以只好逼自己更加坚强、用虚假的笑容去面对。